Stay

We started with awkward smiles

now we are asking about dream houses,

City or countryside?

Collecting intimate details

as lovers do(but we aren't lovers,

not yet)

In this little town, admidst rumblings

of history and misfortunes,

we have somehow found 

in each other

a reason to stay.

I could love you

But you are settled in your ways,

I am still forming myself

And haven't really decided on

the life I want.

So I tell myself

not to be swept away

by the storm of your arrival.

I could love you

but these are years of my life

when I will always put myself first.

You tell me that you haven't felt such

desperation to come home as you do now,

But home is not where

I imagined I would be in my twenties.

I still let myself have an alternate 

storyline though,

one in which we could have ended up 

together and I wouldn't be so worried

about rushing into a storm

I can't control.

the one in which

you asked me to stay
and I did.

and I did.