So what have you learnt so far

So what have you learnt so far,

Apart from what everyone keeps telling you- 

that you should learn algebra, sit like a lady-

 straightbacked, hands folded,  crossed legged,

 to close your mouth when you chew your food

 and definitely definitely not talk while chewing,

 write in such a way to please the examiner

 and better your handwriting, keep your room clean

 and to organise your wardrobe so that a mountain

 of clothes and miscellaneous objects(probably love

 letters received and hate/apology letters never sent) 

don’t descend on you like an avalanche when you

 open your cupboard, to lock up everything you

 can possible lock(but you can’t conceive why

 anyone would waste their energy stealing

 worthless things that you own),

You have learnt to not kick rocks when  Madgirl

 drives you crazy(with rage ofcourse), to hold on to J

 even when things get difficult and he talks in the way

 that reminds you of departures and makes you cry

 but it still makes sense to hold on because you both 

are worth holding on to, to preserve letters even if

 they are absurd and illegible and never sent because

 you were what you wrote and you are what

 you are writing, to walk as much as possible 

as long as there is no risk of heatstroke or being robbed

 and other horrid things because it makes you feel  healthy

 and less fat and the most engaging conversations can take place, 

you miss home but you dread it and it is something you

 will take a lifetime to figure out but then again these might

 be one of those things which are never fully understood 

and that’s why you obsess over it so much.